Thursday, December 23, 2021

Some warmth in the cold

 

   It was in the 50s – not as cold as some recent mornings have been but still butt-cold, as a friend used to say and I still like saying, here in sunny So. Cal.  I was out a bit early – around 9 – and I was out in my van with an attendant delivering Christmas goodies before my weekly marketing. 

   Then, there he was, on the corner, a young boy, ahead of his mother and a smaller child.  He was skipping around, perhaps delighted that he was allowed to go on his own for even a little bit and also no doubt excited that it wouldn’t be long before Santa was coming.  But what was most striking was what the kid was wearing – a skimpy orange t-shirt and what looked like camo shorts.  And I’m talking short shorts, like cut-offs.  What more, as we drove closer with the heater blasting in the van, we saw he wasn’t wearing shoes.  Clearly, he had dressed himself that morning and had even less sense than the college kids here, no doubt from colder climes, who wander around campus on wet, drizzly, January days in t-shirts and shorts.  At least they’re not in daisy dukes! 

   Soon enough, the mother was catching up to him, and it looked like she was giving him a talking-to. You think? 

   “What the Hell are you thinking?” my attendant said, imagining what the mom was saying.  “You go back to the house and get some shoes on!  And some decent pants on while you’re at it!  Now!  Before you catch your death of cold!”

   My attendant and I had a good laugh, both at the boy’s reckless joy and at the insanity of the situation, as we drove on, reminded that cheer is sometimes found in surprising, small things – one of the messages of this season. This light and hope, in a time of darkness when things seem hopeless, is what I wrote about in my latest Claremont Courier column, published on Friday, which follows. 

           MEMORIES, HOPE AS ANOTHER CHALLENGING YEAR ENDS

   “John – you remember me?”

   I looked up.  It was a surprising question.  At least not one I was expecting.

   I was going along my own business, waiting at the cash register at the Kiwannis Club pop-up See’s candy holiday store, getting some Christmas shopping done.  (Actually, I went in to buy a box for myself and decided to get some gifts – sort of like, one for me, four for you.  I was also pleased that I was there early in the season, unlike when I went last year, only to find the store shuttered, with the candy sold out.  And who doesn’t like See’s?)

   Maybe I shouldn’t have been surprised that the man at the cash register recognized me and wondered if I recognized him.  After all, the Kiwannis Club is full of long-time Claremonters, and, to say the least, I have been around for a while. 

   I looked at the man and saw a broad forehead with kind, almost twinkling eyes, topped with a neat layer of white hair.  I wanted to recognize him – I really did, feeling like this was a quiz, and I was failing – but I didn’t. 

   “Does this help?” he asked, removing his mask.  There, to go with those kind eyes, were red cheeks and a broad, open smile.  He looked like a youthful, trim, clean-shaven Santa, but I was pretty sure that’s not who this guy was.  Something was familiar, very vaguely familiar, but – nope – I was bombing. 

   With almost a chuckle, he said.  “It’s Mr.  Patterson.  From El Roble?”

   Of course! I should have known! (Isn’t this what always happens?)   It was Ralph Patterson, who taught the marine biology class I took when I was at El Roble Jr. High. Also, didn’t he go on to be an administrator at the school district?  And – hello! – there was a big hint, with “Ralph” sewn on the front of the apron he was wearing. 

   I laughed.  Of course, it was Ralph Patterson.  I remembered enjoying marine biology more than I thought I would.  He was a good teacher. 

   We agreed that it was nice to see each other after so many years – 40, at least - and wish each other happy holidays. I left the store smiling with a bag full of quality See’s candies, satisfied that I had checked some people off my shopping list and also scoring a box to enjoy myself.  I also left bathed in memories, mostly warm, of El Roble. 

   Mr.  Patterson’s class, I recalled, was a door or two down from the room where we disabled students were based for the first time at the junior high school that year with Anita Hughes, who came with us from Danbury School.  Leonard Gaylord was the principal then and had been the principal at Danbury – this was when it was a school – during some of my years there, where he read Tom Sawyer with a few of us. 

   I also remembered my English teacher, Carol Schowalter, the legendary Ms. S, who was and is hated and loved by thousands of us who had her – hated for how much work she assigned and how hard she was, loved for how much she cared for us and instilled in us the invaluable value of discipline and hard work.  I remembered visiting her often in her classroom in later years, when she called herself an old lady, and meeting her widowed friend Mel, who she was thrilled to marry a few (too few) years before she died.  I also remembered literally carrying a typewriter on my lap as a rode to and from her class in my wheelchair. 

   Sweet, indeed. 

*

   It was a spectacular Fall day, clear and with leaves falling around Little Bridges on the Pomona College campus.  It was also quite warm but not unbearable.  A perfect day for an outdoor concert. 

   Which is exactly what we got as the Pomona College Band, lead by the stalwart and welcoming Graydon Beeks, played on the steps of Little Bridges.  This was a break from the concerts indoors, with the iPads set up outside for filling out health attestation forms.  For one concert, the college orchestra played in the cavernous Bridges Auditorium, spread out on its enormous stage, and where entering was like going through a T.S.A line, requiring the health attestation plus proof of COVID vaccination.  At the college choir concert later, the choir was spread out over the entire ground floor of Little Bridges, with the audience, except those in wheelchairs, in the balcony.  At this outdoor concert, masks were still mandated. 

   The band played a piece that wasn’t on the program.  Mr.  Beeks explained it was a small section of a large-scale work by former band leader William Blanchard which included the choir and premiered in Bridges Auditorium during World War II and which was a plea for peace.

   When the concert ended with a march, I found myself feeling downright patriotic sitting there in my mask, doing my part in this pandemic, in contrast to those who wave the flag and claim that they stand for freedom as they rant and rail against and refuse mask-wearing and vaccines, common-sense measures to get us all out of this hell. 

  *

    At the other colleges, meanwhile, all concerts were being held outdoors.  Okay, but how would this work when it got cold?  And perhaps wet?  People may be fine with sitting there in masks – but not shivering and exposed to whatever elements. 

   So it was probably inevitable when the December concerts were held in Garrison Theater. 

   When the theater manager welcomed the audience before the choir concert, he said it was the first indoor concert there in twenty months.  Twenty months.  I found myself with a lump in my throat. 

   We are living in historic times, historic, hard, strange, sometimes wonderful times.

Saturday, December 11, 2021

Pieces of Fall

 

   On my way to meeting every Sunday morning, driven in my van, I go by a block that is lined with gingko trees.  This block has always been a real treat in the Fall, when the gingko leaves turn brilliant gold and flutter to the ground. 

   It seems to me that the leaves are late in turning this year (another sign of climate change?). It has only been on recent Sundays that the leaves have begun to ever so gradually turn from dark green to pale green to pale gold to brighter and brighter gold – and Fall is just about over.  A few trees have begun to relinquish leaves, while many others are stubbornly refusing to let their leaves go, as they put on an exquisitely slow changeling show.  Perhaps in two or three weeks, now that the weather has finally cooled, they will finally relent, and, one Sunday, the ground will be carpeted in gold – a nice Christmas or New Year’s treat. 

   To my frustration, Fall, my favorite time of year, has also been stalled for me. For much of it, I wasn’t able to go out on my own, as I have loved doing these last couple years.  In fact, I wasn’t able to all Spring and Summer. 

   Early in the year, I found that my one functioning arm – the left – was getting weaker and sometimes giving out or freezing up.  Things came to a head when I was out on a warm – but perhaps not warm enough – day in February and my arm gave out blocks from home and I barely made it back home, with cars honking at me, etc – very scary. 

   I knew I had to do something.  I decided to go all in and get a set-up that I had seen before, that allowed me to drive with my head.  If I was that disabled, I may as well get what I need to live fully as someone that disabled.  It didn’t make sense to try to live like I was less disabled.  So I went back to Casa Colina Hospital, the local rehab hospital, and they helped me get what’s called a head array, which enables me to drive my wheelchair by pressing my head against pads. 

   Yes, this is huge, and I should have been really, really excited about it – and, really, I am.  Yes, I should have written about it.  But it turned out to be an exercise in frustration, with many delays at the hospital (for one thing, why didn’t it have the equipment on hand?) and then waiting for the insurance approval.  By the time I got it in late October instead of perhaps late July, it was hard not to be bitter. 

   Anyway, I have really enjoyed having the head array, at least until it has finally gotten chilly here, and the best thing about it is that I don’t have to use it.  I can still use my joystick.  I was worried about having to use the head array all the time, which would have been a steep learning curve and difficult in tight and not-so-tight indoor spaces, but, no, I can just use it when I need it, when I get too cold, when my arm gets too tired. Until this recent cold snap, when it’s just too cold for me to go out on my own (unlike before my spinal surgery, when the cold didn’t stop me), I have been finding that I am fine using my joystick when I’m out on my own, even when it’s a bit cooler (above 70), likely because I know I have the head array if I need it. To be clear and perfectly frank, I’m not crazy about the head array – it’s is clunky and takes too much mental effort than I care to give and is one more high-tech thing that can, I fear, easily break down – but it’s nice to know that I have it.

   It was frustrating that I couldn’t do this until late October.  I was really looking forward to strolling around this Fall - again, my favorite time of the year – seeing the changing leaves. And it’s too bad I can’t – yet - get to the gingko block or other areas in Claremont with wonderful Fall foliage, even with having the head array (and, again, unlike before my spinal surgery, when it was something I would pass on my many outings in my chair).

   But, then again, I was able to go out strolling in the blacks around my house nearly every day for a good month. Not only that, I have made it a point when I’m on these outings (and also when I’m being driven around town in my van – to and from meeting, for example) to be aware of and to enjoy the Fall colors that have been on view even in this limited range and time.  This is, after all, the “city of trees and Ph.D’s,” founded by people who came from New England and decided that this town would have trees and Fall colors that reminded them of home, even among the swaying palms and desert vistas of sunny So. Cal.   

   This Fall, like the pandemic, has been a reminder that, sort of like those founders of Claremont and its first college, Pomona, you strive for what you want but also make the best of what you find yourself with.